A fashion love affair blog4/3/2023 ![]() ![]() It was the one thing I thought I’d truly never do. ![]() The biggest deception that I carried around was all of the things I once categorized as “I would never!” Having an affair was the biggest, juiciest doozy on that list. ![]() Ultimately, I learned a great deal about myself that I would never have discovered had I not encountered Noah. But in the end I confessed and actually felt relieved because I was exhausted by the lies and double life I was leading. Like all cheaters, I tried to lie my way out of it. He was suspicious for some time before he got confirmation for himself by having me followed. My affair ended when my husband became aware of my relationship with Noah. I like to think the downs were attributed to our restrictions because we could never be a “real” couple.Įventually, my excuses got very sloppy and I had a hard time trying to cover up where I had been for hours at a time. We had our ups and downs during those 7 months - more ups than downs. But Noah was always very understanding and supportive. So our time together was always limited to the boundaries of my situation: my marriage. It was difficult for me to carve out more than a couple of hours each time without causing suspicion with my husband. Noah and I continued to meet at his house whenever we could, whenever our work and family schedules permitted time together. That was the beginning of our 7-month affair. He invited me over to his house. I was a bit hesitant at first because I was fairly certain how I already felt about this man and knew we would have sex. We agreed to meet later after work for a drink and more conversation. He made me so nervous at times that I really couldn’t even speak I just let him do most of the talking. How is this even possible? Unless he’s a total fraud and just does this kind of thing for fun. Halfway through our meal, he leaned over and asked me, “Do you think you could love me?” He was chivalrous, polite, and very assertive, which was a complete turn-on. We decided to have lunch early that week and he was just as I’d hoped he would be. I know what you’re thinking … you talked to this guy for an hour and you think you know him? Yes, because I felt something just by talking to him that I never felt before. We talked for well over an hour and learned a great deal about each other. Our first phone conversation was just as stimulating as our first hello. ![]() We spent the next few days exchanging text messages and pictures, and I was totally overwhelmed. His response was immediate and I was thrilled. So I decided to send him a connection request on LinkedIn. After all, it seemed like he just wanted to get to know me. I then bolted from the gym in total embarrassment.Īfter the drive home, I realized my reaction was a bit silly. I gave him a very weak answer which of course he didn’t believe, but then admitted he was flattered and impressed by my boldness. I was dumbfounded by his question. Then he mentioned he knew that I looked at his LinkedIn profile. The next day at the gym, Noah curiously asked me if I found out what I was looking for. So I took the first step and showed her his LinkedIn profile, and surprisingly she wasn’t interested. Since I was obviously married, my first inclination was to set him up with good friend of mine. He was separated and had been living alone for a while. Was he married, girlfriend, gay? None of the above. I’d seen him there a few times before our first actual introduction and asked a mutual acquaintance what his situation was. I met “Noah” at the gym at the beginning of 2015. I wanted and needed to grab onto something … someone that would help me feel like my “old” self. But after five years of marriage and a vivacious three-year-old son, I felt my life - what was left - slipping out of my grasp. Let me begin by saying that I’m married to a wonderful man who truly loves and understands me for who I am. This is just my personal inquiry of the wisdom I can derive at this point in my life as I work to let go of and heal from the impact of this experience. A disclaimer: I’m in no way promoting having an affair, nor am I assuaging myself of the guilt I carry for my actions, lest anyone should think otherwise. ![]()
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